One True Love Page 7
The small party conversed another few minutes, and then the braves turned their ponies and rode toward the chuck wagon.
The camp guards dispersed, their concerns apparently eased.
Reaching for her crutches, Copper awkwardly got to her feet and approached Josh, who was coming back to camp with Frank Richardson.
Redlin acknowledged her with a nod of the head when she met him at the end of the wagon. “Something I can do for you, Miss Wilson?”
“Please stop with the Miss Wilson. I think we know each other well enough to speak our given names.”
“What’d you need, Copper?”
She inclined her head toward the prior meeting spot. “What was that about?”
He turned to look where she indicated, and then turned back. “The braves?”
She sighed. “No, the grass. Of course the braves! What did they want?”
“Think I’ll just leave you two to duke it out.” Frank Richardson tipped his brim and walked on, chuckling under his breath.
Removing his hat, Josh ran a hand through his hair. “They wanted to herd our stock tonight.”
“Herd our stock?”
“They say they know of good pasture up the road.”
“And you’d trust them to take our stock?”
“No. I would send Mike and Doug with them, but yes, I hired them to take the stock for the night. They’ll have it back by sunup.”
“Won’t they be armed? How can you believe them?”
His tolerant look was enough to bring color to her cheeks. “I give you my word, they won’t be armed, but Mike and Doug will be. The stock hasn’t had good pasture in a few days so I took them up on their offer. It’s common practice so don’t worry your pretty head about it.”
Copper’s eyes shifted to the chuck wagon where the braves were now off their ponies. “Are you going to feed them too?”
“Super and breakfast—that’s all they want.”
“There’s four of them. You’re going to send all four?”
“No, two will ride ahead until they find another train and offer the same service—why all of the interest? Are you running this train now?” He grinned. “Didn’t I hear you explaining fear and irrational fear to the kids the other day?”
“Yes…” She bit down on her lower lip. “And I regret the lesson. I wanted to make an impression, and now I fear I might have made them lax. One asked how I could tell if their fears were rational or irrational, and I didn’t have an answer.”
He reached out and tweaked her nose. “If you find an arrow in your back, they’re rational.”
When she didn’t smile, he sobered. “There isn’t an answer. You use caution, but eventually you get to know their habits and you can pretty well figure out their sense of purpose. If you’re going to make a mistake, make it on the side of caution, if that helps.”
They turned and she kept pace with him.
“I also bought four sides of antelope from them,” he said. “Thought the folks might enjoy some fresh meat tonight.”
As much as she hated to admit it, the man could be pleasant when he wanted, and today he wanted. He treated his job with respect, and the folks in his party like family.
He nodded toward the crutch. “How’s the ankle?”
“Very painful.”
His gaze softened. “We’ll be in Fort Riceson soon.” She noticed he didn’t try to annoy her with anxious thoughts of flooded rivers and broken wheels. His answer was as close to real information as she’d come, and she was relieved to hear the journey would soon be over.
“I’m frightened.” For the first time, she felt herself opening to him. “If I allow myself to think about the possibility of—”
He interrupted. “Dyson is the best. I had heard of his work before you were injured. If the ankle can be fixed, he’ll do it. If not, then you live with what God gives you.”
Resentment built in the back of her mind. “That’s easy to say when you’re not the one with trouble. You’ve never had to experience anything like this.”
He chuckled but not with mirth.
She glanced over, perplexed. “What?”
“Do you think you’re the only person on earth with problems?”
“No, but—”
“You’re not.” He answered for her. “You’ve got a heavy load, I’ll grant you that, but whatever happens, you’ll make it through.”
“How can you be so certain? You hardly know me.”
“Because I know people, and I know you well enough to say you’ve got what it takes to make it through this world.”
She wished she felt as confident as he sounded.
“That was a compliment, Miss Wilson.”
She glanced over and grinned. “I know. Was that so hard?”
He shrugged. “Took all I had, but I got it out.”
By now they’d reached Adele’s wagon. They paused, and he removed his hat. “The thing I said about accepting whatever God sends your way? I still have to work on that one myself. It’s not easy, and it takes a powerful lot of thinking to not resent God during the hard times.”
She couldn’t believe her ears. The man who had once grated on her nerves beyond anything she’d experienced, was now talking to her seriously, and sharing some of the struggles he faced. She’d always imagined having these kinds of conversation with a man, but never thought it would be Josh.
“Thank you, and thank you for the vote of confidence.”
He turned to leave, and then slowly turned back. “Regretfully, I hate to ruin the mood, but I have something I need to say and I don’t want you flying off the handle. Agreed?”
She stiffened. And they were getting along so well. “What?”
“Agreed?”
“Agreed—within limits.”
“Don’t be spreading any more rumors or speculations about my correspondence.”
She was quite certain that if a face could physically hit the ground, hers would have at that moment. “Why…I…” She was sputtering and she knew it. Who’d told on her? Nellie? Well, woe to her if she ever mentioned another word around that nosy body.
“Look.” His tone gentled even more. “I’m not getting on you, I’m just asking that you don’t be speculating about things you know nothing about. Do we have an agreement?”
She nodded, embarrassed speechless. Mortified. He was right. She’d had no call to theorize about his personal life.
“Hey.” He tilted her chin to meet his gaze. “I’m not angry with you. I just happen to be a private man who doesn’t like speculation. Rumors can turn ugly and mean and innocent folks can get hurt.”
“I’m sorry,” she murmured. “Of course you’re right, and I was out of place.” It would be of no value to explain her motive, though chances were Josh knew Sadie’s expectations and had decided long ago to ignore the matter.
Why hadn’t she been as wise?
That night the rain moved in. Copper lay on her pallet listening first to the thunder and lightning, and then the downpour as it lashed the canvas. For some reason the laudanum was not easing the pain much this time, and she prayed for the hazy spell the drug normally produced.
Her thoughts drifted to Josh Redlin. He wasn’t so bad—good conversationalist, knowledgeable, and he certainly knew his job. The antelope had made a wonderful supper, and later some men had taken the remains to the way station to share among the soldiers.
All in all, it had been a good day—maybe even a fine day. Soon she would know her fate, and as Josh had said, she was strong, strong enough to accept whatever God sent her way.
She only wished she was as certain of her inner strength as he seemed to be.
Chapter 10
Heavy rain couldn’t disguise the sound of bawling cattle and braying jackasses.
An hour before dawn, the mules woke the whole camp. Sitting up, Copper blinked back sleep, trying to focus.
Adele rolled to her side and pulled the blanket over her head. “Stock’s back.”
Breakfast was last night’s fare. The travelers huddled against a blowing rain and ate in silence. Redlin led the daily devotions, and compared travel ordeals to the Israelites wandering in the wilderness. He pointed out that their forty-year wanderings were due to the fact that they had disobeyed God, but that in his love he continued to provide manna and quail for them anyway. Though conditions weren’t ideal, God would provide the needed strength to reach their destination if they kept the faith.
Services ended, and the travelers headed to their rigs. At exactly eight o’clock, the party pulled out. The back wheels of Adele’s wagons were stuck and it took her and Sadie and three other good-sized men ten minutes to break the rig loose and catch up.
Copper waved to the post soldiers as the prairie schooners and Conestogas rumbled past. Mike and Doug rode ahead of Redlin and Richardson. They would decide the campground for that night.
“Sort of reminds me of Thunder Ridge,” Adele called above the creaking of rotating wheels and pouring rain.
Copper nodded. Her thoughts were also with Willow and Audrey. They would be dressing for church services, decked in their best. Reverend Cordell would preach, Willow would play the new organ, and then they’d go home to a hot dinner of fried chicken and cornbread. Homesickness swept through her like an ice storm. She shuddered.
Adele glanced over. “Cold?”
Last night’s weather front brought not only rain, but a bone-rattling wind. It was a miserable time to be traveling. She huddled deeper into the warm blanket wrapped around her shoulders. “No, just homesick.”
“A terrible thing.” Adele clucked to the team. “Just know that family and friends are thinking of you too.”
Remembering wasn’t the problem; memories were the source of her misery.
Noon meal was eaten in wagons. Rain fell in buckets, and Copper had sent word down the line there’d be no lesson today.
Late afternoon, she slipped into a slicker and eased up front to sit on the driver’s bench and visit with Sadie, who now manned the two-horse team. Some rigs had four animals; some had only two to pull the load. Adele had mentioned that this train had stock problems. Many families started out with a two-horse team and a wagon too heavily loaded. Long before the train had reached Thunder Ridge many had been forced to jettison furniture and other heavy objects. Adele said that if the trail got really muddy Redlin would have to temporarily hitch part of his stock to some of the wagons to help keep the train moving.
That afternoon, Copper turned on her seat to peer back at the terrain. Today their rig was one of the last because of their late start.
“That’s the third time you’ve craned your neck like that. What are you looking for? Indians?”
“No. There’s another wagon train following us. Has been all day.”
Sadie whistled to the team. “I’ve had my eye on ’em.”
“Who are they?” And why were they following so close? Soldiers had stopped Redlin’s train a couple of times and asked him to add a small group of travelers. In Indian country there was safety in numbers and the military would not allow a small train to travel alone. He had never been pleased with the arrangement, but he was not willing to contribute to the death of any of them. Besides, the soldiers had not really given him any choice. And, so far, none of the newcomers had been any trouble, the train was just getting bigger.
“Don’t know. They must know where the checkpoints are and they’re avoiding them. Not a smart thing to do.”
“Why would anyone do that? Aren’t they concerned about their welfare?”
She shrugged. “Folks are strange. Some don’t want to bother with guard duty or the discipline of a larger group.”
Independent. Do as they pleased. Copper related, but this trip had changed her mind about self-reliance. Independence was a good thing, but having your scalp still attached at the end of the day was better. She reached for the notepad she kept handy and jotted down thoughts for future lessons.
By late afternoon the rain let up and a cold sun peeked out while they were making camp. Most ate and went straight to bed, plain worn out from fighting the elements all day.
Copper wrote in her journal about the date’s events, and the strange wagon train following so close. It seemed the laudanum was taking longer and longer to work each evening.
Haven’t seen much of Redlin today. He rode a ways up, while our wagon traveled near the back. I suppose I should be thankful he wasn’t around to infuriate me, but oddly enough I missed the distraction. I thought I might catch him at supper but someone said he was bandaging a mule’s ankle. Lucky mule…
She hurriedly struck the last thought.
The weather evened out, and by mid-morning the following day Copper peeled out of her heavy shawl. The sycamores and cottonwoods were turning brown. Overnight, it seemed, the rain and cooler temperatures had started the annual fall ritual. She remembered God’s promise to Noah after the flood that the seasons of the year would never cease. It seemed a little sad that the leaves reached their greatest glory only in their death.
She whirled when Redlin rode up beside their wagon. Tipping his hat, he smiled. “Morning, ladies.”
Sadie broke into a wreath of smiles. “Morning, Redlin.”
Josh’s eye skimmed Copper. “How are you this fine day?”
“Breathing, thank you. Are we nearly there?”
“Yep.” He winked. “We ford the river tomorrow, and Fort Riceson’s another day’s ride.” Assessing the blue sky, he smiled. “Looks like the rain is over.” Kicking the horse into a gallop, he rode away before she could ask him if he’d noticed they had company. Four wagons following half a mile behind.
“Sadie? You think he knows about those wagons?”
Sadie laughed. “He knows.”
“Did you tell him?”
She shook her head. “No ma’am, don’t need to. He knows.”
Copper hoped that she knew what she was talking about. She knew nothing about wagon travel other than what she’d recently encountered, but she was sure that four unidentified wagons following on their heels could spell trouble.
Maybe big trouble.
After supper, Copper made her way to the creek where the men were shooting. She moved far enough downstream to take a brisk sponge bath before she emerged from the willows growing along the bank. Thankfully, the shooting session was over and the men were packing up to leave. She approached Josh as he picked up the Henry and a double-barrel shotgun and started off.
“Josh?”
He turned. “Yes?”
“May I have a word?”
He reversed his steps and approached. “What can I do for you?”
“There are four wagons following us—have been for the past two days.”
He nodded.
“You’ve seen them?”
He indicated a fallen log. “Sit down.”
“I don’t want to sit. I’ve been sitting all day.”
“Don’t make me pick you up and put you on that log. I’ve had a long day, and I’m in no mood to argue.”
She sank to the log.
Propping the guns on a nearby stump, he then sat down beside her, answering her question. “I don’t know who they are. I thought they might break away sometime today and travel in a different direction, but so far they haven’t. The river’s up some from the heavy rain; could be they’re hanging around, hoping to cross with us.”
“Well, that hardly seems fair. Crossing with us would mean managing four more wagons and their stock, which seems to be plentiful. And more important, extra wagons would only slow us more.”
“I’m going to talk to them before we pull out in the morning.”
“Talk indeed. You order them to stay back, observe proper etiquette.” The very nerve of people, crowding in where they weren’t invited.
“Yes. I�
��ll be sure and use those exact words.”
She glanced over, ignoring his jest. “You will not. You have no trouble speaking your mind with me, but when it comes to others you’re too courteous. I’ll go with you.”
He shook his head, looking away, but it was only too clear that he agreed because he was laughing at her. She could see his shoulders heave.
She narrowed her eyes.
He threw up his hands. “Okay, I’ll be a barbarian. I’ll ride in with guns blazing and arrows flying. I’ll scalp a couple of women, shoot a few horses, and prove that I mean business.”
He would do no such thing. He would ask them their business, and then ask them to keep proper distance from his train. If those folks were bold enough to follow for two days, his words would fall on deaf ears. “I’m going with you.”
He sobered. “You are not.”
“Yes I am. I know you. You’ll be all nicety nice and they’ll still be following us in the morning, and when we get to the river you’ll feel obligated to let them cross with us, which, may I remind you, will delay us for who knows how long? We added two more wagons at the last checkpoint.” She altered her tone to civil when she realized her objection had turned stringent. “Don’t you care that I’m in awful pain, and if we dally too long I might suffer permanent consequences of your error in judgment?”
He reached over and traced a finger along her jawline, then touched her cheek. His gaze softened. “Of course I care. I know you put up a good front, but Adele keeps me informed on your condition. I know that you’re never out of pain, that the medicine takes longer to work now. I know about the night sweats and the nightmares, and I know about your fears. I’m doing the best I can to get you to the fort as quickly as I can. We’re close. Just hang on for another few days and trust me.”
She blinked back tears. She hated it when he was kind. It made her like him, really like him. And she didn’t want to like him, didn’t want to consider the sort of upheaval that such a “like” might add to her life. Somewhere a woman in Dallas named Susan waited for him. Was she important to him—important in a forever kind of way? She had no way of knowing, and why would she entertain the idea that her feelings would matter to Redlin? He was all man, and she could very likely be a cripple the rest of her life. Every moment’s delay brought her closer to that very real possibility, and what man would want a cripple for…She couldn’t finish the senseless thought.